Friday, August 28, 2009
This Can't Be Helped I realized...
All class presentation and projects are officially out of my life that gives me a sense of good relief and very happy...
The lessons for this semester is going to end to none and the holidays is greatly approaching...
Memories started to refresh my mind again and again...
The thing I want to remember is how someone and I have this little moments I never knew these will make a big impact in my heart..
That someone I am not that close to will instantly become so close that I wanna cry...
What I see this person is like that someone is like a pure angel with a powerful charm to comfort me in anyway...
I remember I walk alone with that person smiling widely at me and put his hand on my shoulder...while I was walking..
That feeling I get is so strong that my eyes are hardly close and my heart starts to beat so hard I hardly breathe..
To become the hypnostised victim under the eye contact of that person..
But I knew that it is just a seconds fantasy...
There's no way I can enter his life...cos there's too much differences to bare..I barely understood the possible link between me and him...
Im just sad that I found a perfect guy yet he's not fit to be mine anymore...
"I guess I have to move on and keep on finding the one for me"
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Getting More Guarded
Now as for me is the holiest month when time has let us to do more of our personal time to ourselves in any case.
Well, I am happy that my group has handed up the IEP Event Proposal though I personally saw 1 or 2 things I may not like but I don't want to bother too much cos my voice will never reach their ears...
For the first time of all project history I have done, my workload is not so heavy as it usually be...sigh..so happy and my heart feels very light...even being scolded won't affect my facial expression...haha...
Oh yeah, I went for an interview which I applied for Designer who produces postcards etc with the module I learned currently...
It was at ITE Simei and ehem..one incident I just wanna bring up...haha
I was searching for the location for the interview cos the school is enormously big and I mean it is BIG! It is like a maze of hell if u school there but the luxury there is very worth yet expensive especially having a simple meal in the music-filled canteen,haha!
I was lucky enough not to school there since its far far away from home...
Ok, I walked and searched for it in the certain pathway...
This group of malay boys passed me except for this guy..
I went here, he went here..
I went there, he went there...
Then I realized that he wanna ask me something I don't know...he looked into my eyes...
Asking me for tissues!?
WTH!
He done all that for tissues...
Ask me casually,can o not!?
My face is in default stiff when looking at him and say in a cold tone "..No.."
He thanked me..then walked away...
By the way, I really got a gut feeling seconds before that happen..haha
I wanna laughed,haha
At the interview, I was first to do it...
The interviewer asked me alot of questions about my work,interests,future plan(after graduating) and so on..
It was very long like 30 min plus if I not wrong...
But it was very fun and relaxed one...which I intially thought that it would be a stiff one...
Since I told the interviewer that I can so called duplicate people face...
He looked very excited that he asked me to draw his gf pic in fast pace....WHAT! HAHA! WHAT A OPPORTUNITY!
I know it is a small thing but good enough for an art-lover like me haha..
When I started to draw, there is another guy named Farhan who applied for junor event mananger...whoa...
I never gave my name to him cos if I did, I scared that he would ask me a lot of questions about my race and left no time for me to draw properly by then...
But just being considerate, I just asked him some basic questions while drawing intially....
He's nice and cute haha but nah dun wanna bother catch him anyway haha
I must draw the pic properly cos DUH! HIS GF AH! WAIT HE SCOLDS ME IF I DRAW HER OUT OF PORTION HAHA!
In the end, I finished and he commented it that it was cute! phew~! haha!
Went home..finally..tired sia especially came back form long distance journey...
I wanna a part time job during free days and weekends...
Cos I knew my life is getting more boring every single second...
I dun wanna rot my precious life...
So why not spice things up haha!
Ok lah, that all I wanna state here for now..
Till then, see ya later ;)
"The Mentalist is the best tv show I ever seen, Simon Baker is darn hot! haha!"
Friday, August 14, 2009
A boy who never fails to get my heart,my everything...
Hey! I guess you have been waiting long enough for my latest update...
Ok my class has coordinated 2 events which are Masquerade Party (Changing Faces) (070809) that's the date occured and a very good number,don't you think so? *take as a toto number haha!*
My Comment: It was hella of the best event I ever attended especially with my best classmates I ever had...never gotta forget the memories we made during that event...So I give my hands up and down to Happy2 Pte Ltd! ;P
Then yesterday it was my own group event (Estrella Kudos Production Represents Class Award Cum Circus 2009)...(130809)..The progress of transporting,setting and decorating including whatever involved really take our energy out of ourselves. Run here and there..check2 like no end to it to make sure it's ok...
I initially thought that there would be problems occured cos we may not know the overall thing of our event should carry out..but it seems that it went incredibly well..Thank God For That!
My Comment: Though our event programme was pretty short, we had fun till we turned into party animals and yeah, smiles are everywhere on our classmates' faces...haha! Good Job to Estrella Kudos Production for the contribution...
Ok now, there is boy never fails to get all the girls heart including mine..he's such a lady-killer. To me, just only his presense has brought me a love attack which will freeze me to death...I will GAGA about him in my mind lah..But I am lucky enough to withstand that haha!
Seriously, he is such a fine2 young man...He is like a perfect angel come down from heaven to earth sia..Whenever he says something or whatever he does, it brings me to smile very very big..
But he's attached like hotcakes popping haha and anyway he's pretty young as good to become like my little brother,sigh..Im sad sia...
Im sad I am older than him....and not able to get so called good and clean love affair with him..sigh..a perfect man slips through my fingers...
"You are damn hot young man...just be careful of the weak-hearted girls out there getting on ya haha! Cos you just got me heatin' "
Sunday, August 2, 2009
When Seeing Things Get You Killed
Sigh, nowadays whenever I am home, I will be like all out and just laze around like nobody business but whenever I am in school, people around me is getting distant and the life once before the great fun is now getting dim...
Though I am laughing and smiling in class, there is no such times to get me really excited like I once before since the beginning...
My class...each of them has their own gang, there's one gang I really kinda amazed of them cos of their extremely dangerously charismatic life in them...way way above I have been witnessing for my last 20 years...
They are so like family of their own...I can't deny that...
Only I don't like is being treated differently on a dark side...and I know it myself...but I just don't care about it anymore...My energy of wanting to revenge has gone down to zero as I am getting older and my health somehow may affect due to my body getting overlimit...
Well, I can say is that I cannot be the person who can be the 100% infinitely total fun all year long...I don't want to fake smiling and ending up "killing" you...
I am a woman whom you should not have high expection on cos I really hate that the most from the person whom I make friends with...
Now I just wanna get out of here and find the light for me and only me to where I really belong... where my heart begin to beat happily again....
"You Can't Expect Me To Feel The Pain When I Got Smacked By A Volleyball Cos I Can't Feel Anything As My Body Halfway Died"
