Chinese New Year thought I don't celebrate it but some people are nice enough to give us some of their Chinese Inpsiration...haha!
The Best Part!
Sheng Siong CNY Pouch,Nice Kan?
A Basket of Small Oranges
Including Pineapple Tarts and Kuih Mak Mor as its bodyguards,haha~! Knock,Knock!
Who's There? Ox Is In The House Y'all !!
My Ox Under The Lime Light!
I also made a mini video about it...Please Watch It And Enjoy!
Her First Try in Batik Made By Maznah
My Very Bad Emotional 20th Birthday...
Random Pic of my school...Say Hi to the Camera,Fishes! Another Random Pic of my school... The Unrevealed
My Pressies! Wee~! >.<
Mark's Pressie (Before)
I got a PURPLE Cute Monkey~! Aww,very sweet of him and I am not dramatic at this point!
Almost can see what is the present...
Photo Album From Yvette the Love Goddess,Ah! Haha...Give me some motivation to take more photos in the future!
Pressie from Ah Ting! So Cute the Wrapping!
Ta Da! I got a notebook,this one is very special! Gotta use it for a big memo!
What! That's more! A Bday Card! The Message is Short and Sweet and bought me to my old memories! Huda,Maz,Jac P and Hui Lian bought this one for me...4-in-1....POWER! HAHA!
OMG! It is Bloody Beautiful...very elegant like cost a billion bucks!
Another Best part during Birthdays...
Ice- Cream Cake From Swensens! GLORIOUS!
Another Look before this was going to be eaten by my family and I! Muahaha!
The Candles say their last prayers before being blown and so the cake to be eaten...HAHA!
Ready...Get Set...GO! HEY! I should blow the flames out first, not you PURPLE MONKEY! HAHA!
My Piece
May The Man Get The Last Piece of Remaining Cake! CHARGE!
One for You, One For Me...See I am kind to my pet,hookay!
Kids, Don't Play with Fire,Dammit! XD!
" Phew~! I am so done with this blogging process! "
Sunday, January 25, 2009
Happy Chinese New Year And Beyond!
And...
HAPPY 19TH BELATED BIRTHDAY TO YVETTE~!
WISH HER, WILL YA?
HAHA!
More to come soon....
"ARGH! I hate the Internet Connection downturn!"
Friday, January 23, 2009
Walking Bare Footed Stable On The Path Of Fire Stones
These few days I realized that I should just get easy going myself and not trying so hard to please myself.
It is because life may not go easy on my way either applies to everybody else.
Just make jokes and laugh it off the negativity.
School wise,ok but the lessons are dry on certain extent. I can endure abit and getting sleepy these days though I had a good few sleep...
I don't why...
Got role-play from BZC to deal with including the Marketing Plan from POM to end it hopefully asap.
Chinese New Year is coming on its way and so my good friend's birthday,Yvette.
She is going 19 years old,this coming Sunday....
I gave her a present of a handphone "bed"...yeah...hope she likes it... :")
Now...I just wanna rest till my fatique is gone...
" I admit that I miss those times the happy and crazy ones that still brings me to tears in the end"
Monday, January 19, 2009
Drag Myself Up To The Stairs
Not Good Not Bad Either...
That's I will describe my life right now...
Yes, I feel safe with my people now...
But eventually, I will be lonely and boring at major point...
Feeling frustrated and overtense...
Thinking the whole world is abandoning me...
Back to square 1...very tired of being to try make myself up and up constantly...
Thank God, I am given an option which is to study for the exams and beyond...
I know, tasteless and boring and having an increase of chance to become a nerd soon >.<"
Ok, but yeah only way to get away from loneliness and all those excessive emotions which Yve has thought me before...
Yve, you are my hero at one point,thanks :)
Ok now...alot of work to do...and yeah stress mode as usual...
I laugh away like nobody's business
Someone will think I am mad at this point
But who cares, they don't understand a single bits of my biscuts....
Being mad is being a jump of joy at certain extent...
Oh well...I can't help it cos it is naturally in my blood...
Guys, tell me the meaning of "Forever"?
Does it rings your head that any human lives is forever?
Or the things or whatever you are holding right now is forever there?
I honestly don't believe that word anymore....cos of things happened 2-3 years ago...
Sigh, bloody fed up with the same old being emotional bucket holder which I was that time...
I was one stupid girl of thinking helping people will be awarding to me..
Well, I am not that now...
Im changed...
(Just Pray For Me That I Will Not Screw It Up The Wall)
"Bad People Learn More Than Good People, What Do You Think?"
Saturday, January 17, 2009
A Cold Emotional Ride
On my 20th birthday, I felt like myself being stuck and not moving at all...don't fell happy about it...turning really older...I just couldn't help it even though they told me to be fine with it.
They don't know how does it feel to be in a total sudden change just like that?
So I was all day being moody and sulking but thanks for the birthday wishes and pressies... especially my class sang a birthday song to me...feeling kinda awkward but wanna know my appreciation because they tried...
They asked me to say my speech...unexpected...I just said whatever came from my mind with my hand scratching my head...feeling stepped on...cold
I was there, feeling that my "time" was finally over...feeling "sick" and restless...don't know what to do but to just stand very emotional all the way for 2 days...
No mood to study but wanna to go out to feel better alone....
I cried at night, feeling frustrated because I am left hanging and holding on to nothing...
Some people I asked for suggestion or advice...that one gave me an answer which meaning to ending a life...I can say that person is the most idoitic person I ever met...
Why not I slap that person's face with a metalic bat..stupid...!
I was like"IDOIT! I AM IN A BAD EMOTIONAL STATE AND MY BIRTHDAY WAS YESTERDAY AND NOW U TELLING ME THIS....IDOIT...READ YOUR QURAN,WILL YOU!"
I don't care anymore...and don't even bother giving drama scenes anymore...I will just go straight,straight away...to get to the finish line...no matter what...even it hurts me...
I have been through all that way before..sigh
Not easy living a life, huh?
Anyway, I have passed my POM CA Exam which is 38/50 reaching my expected core of 40 but it is ok as I passed it, it is enough for me...
CLT! Champion seh...second is Ah Chiang,sio...hiya..feeling down *hides in the corner with black face*
Nevermind... :)
I will be loading some pics soon as I can grab time into my hands... XD!
"Freaking the lonely freak, SCREW YOU!"
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
Not A Girl Not Yet A Woman
Soon I will be become 20 soon...so fast....I was ended 19 like yesterday.
Begun 19, I told myself that I should do a lot of things that I wanna do like taking part in events or something I never done before.
I did it!
Sigh, I joined the F1 Race event, Singapore Biennale,School Poetry Competition, Quite of few singing contests that I auditioned myself in eventhough I failed straight away,haha...step me cold..but nevermind, I will be trying again this year..hope have again...this time I am willing to give my all. I am so desperately need it to get in...
Fingers cross!
Ok,POM CA exam was something I could handle steadily that's all I can say. I don't wan people to think that I am showing off my brains,haha!
Yeah, thanks to opportunities given, I met alot of different type of people: Good,Bad,Ugly, Beautiful,Perv and others that caught me by surprise,haha XD!
The best part is talking to people especially the cute hot guys,haha...just friends or colleages only hookay! haha
I learned alot from them and the places I worked in last year.
It was a great experience, that I should have started it more earlier...but nevermind lah...what for force myself if I am not ready for anything to butter my path?
Well, I already ready...and just GO!
A year older is a year of living on...I just dun wanna grow up anymore!
"Thank God, I make it alive to this very day cos You have saved me from drowning 9 years ago"
Monday, January 12, 2009
The Changes with a Boom!
Ok, I got something to say out that makes my hands itch so bad that I wanna "puke" it out to make myself better.
No no it is not something bad...seriously
I have seen that the people I have met have changed tremedously and I never believed at all but I do now.
It hurts but it has to happen sooner or later, why not later and kill the sooner,haha! XD
I know nothing last forever and never will be forever because we are bound to change so matter how fast we will run from it.
I am scared of being older and hestitated to change but I will have to.
By that, I may feel better..being good and matured...
I really don't want to be an old hag with no life to move on....just wanna grow old gracefully...
You know...with my past years of my pure youth as teenager girl....
I will miss...the cuteness if me....the friends I first made...the emotions I first felt....the obstacles I first fought it off...the times I shockly said vulgarites(it was true then) I stopped just for my sake of my well-being as I grow older...and all the sweet sweet things I could never ask for more.
I don't know...
Sigh, my heart just keep on beating up and down like a very bad insanity in love
It is stupid, so I better control it...get myself busy with important stuff
Bad thing I have to bother with is the Marketing CA is coming Wednesday....one day before my 20th birthday...it was so close...
Thank God, my birthday is not affected by the exam...
It will be heart breaking if that happen...
I know it is very overreacting but...to me 20 is the huge mark that I made it through alive with the years I have hugely bravely went through mostly alone...
It was the huge dark periods of years I went through...pain,cry and betrayal....
Still now, I never believed that I went it through it all...it scares me...
"I see the night like day and the wind blows me hard as it wanna kiss me on my lips"
Saturday, January 10, 2009
This is Who I am
I love to laugh like hell
Tomboy with a girlish dreams
Daredevil with a heart of heavy gold
Go-Getter that never gonna give up despites critism
Emotionless with a empty heart
Glamorous with blings
That you never forget and admire my "unusual" memories
:)
"Im sorry that I am a nutcracker who keep breaking hearts without mercy"
Friday, January 9, 2009
School begans and so the bloody stress
Ok it has been a week from the time I last bloggin' in, here it goes...
School-wise is going quite smoothly except some lessons are wasting my time now and then still. Sigh, darn...I hate that.
Glad to meet my 2nd family,IET! Some of them got a new hair-dos...I really like Wani's...so nice and lively really suits her well especially the highlights!
My group,as usual talk crap and more crap...
Only this year, I not gonna stir up old times again...I don't wanna get hurt cos I have been hurt again and again.
I should rather laugh out than to cry out.
Just celebrate life,people!
Projects and homeworks are officially done,THANK GOD!
If I hold them any longer, I can go crrraaazzzy~!
FREAKING DAMN STRESS! Cos got P.O.M CA Exam this coming week! FISH!
STUDY AND NO SLACKING~x100000000000000000!
DARN IT!
First time, I wore eyeliner to school, whoa daring move of me...dun give a freaking damn about the lookers asking for sarcatism.
But then, after I talked with some of my classmates; with all starts with me wearing eyeliner...
They were trying to help me out...I really didn't know they can be so concern about whatever it is personally. I was really touched by what they were saying to me yesterday.
So touched I wanna cry sio!
I am very bloody happy to have IET as my classmates also my 2nd Family.
I have no need to be afraid to letting things out of me.
"Lack of communication,huh?"
I will try to be talkative...thanks...haha....thank you very much,truly appreciated :)
Finally and finally I got some people to guide me through...
"IET,I Love Them, I Tease Them,I Hug Them, I Know Them...I never forget you guys even my days are ended"
Thursday, January 1, 2009
Things from the past (2005-2008)
Received from my mum's colleage from the trip from Disneyland (2008)
One of my mum's Bday present (2008) From my ex-classmate gave me for my early 18th Birthday...it was a sweet surprise from her...:) (11 January 2007)
Purple Handphone Accessory Inside...
Covered in this wrapping
Nice Ribbon,it was last minute pasking or was seconds minute packing,haha!
Christmas present from one of my mum's colleages (2007)
What's inside...Cute right?!
Message from her...*_*..I wanna cry..bloo hoo hoo,haha!
Aluminium Cap from Chiangmai,Thailand (September 2005)
Paper Hearts,Hobbicraft club (2007) Sentosa Shootout for Skyride (13 December 2008)
Massage Stick (Early 2008) Saai Mini Umbrella from Chiangmai,Thailand (September 2005)
Mum's Bday Present from her friend
That's more...
From left: My Ex-bestie gave me for my 18th Bday,This one I can't remember,maybe it was out of nowhere haha and finally my AM secondary teacher gave me this....)
One of my mum's relative's/friend's wedding....
One of my classmates' spectacles (Class Party) (23 December 2008)
Seashell (Class Party) (23 December 2008)
Back View (F1 Usher Uniform) (26-28 September 2008)
Front View (F1 Usher Uniform) (26-28 September 2008)
To Uncle John(2005): I miss you and hope you getting fine with your life and ur family...and thanks alot for the guidance throughout our trip, :)
To Shafirin(2007): Thought I knew you loved me from afar...Im sorry I didn't talk to you or something because of my reasonable doubts...Thanks for loving me and hoping you will find a better girl than me,muaks!
To one guy I worked with at F1 event 2008 (Darn I forgot his name,WHY! Hahaha: Nice working with you and it was my greatest pleasure to meet and able to talk to you...miss miss you!
To my senior at F1 event 2008: Haha,Uncle2 Miss your jokes,haha! TC!
To the guys I have met in my life: You will be my Big Bros in forever life and after,DUDE! HAHA!
To the girls I have met in my life: We do catfights or whatsoever, but being with you is a great blessing in disguise,THANKS!
To the enemies I have met: I wish I can make a big and deep revenge on you but I can't...only God knows who are the ones should be swallowed in the darkness,haha!
"I miss you and I love you till there's no more last of me"
Knock,Knock!
Ox Is In The House Y'all !!
Another Random Pic of my school...
The Unrevealed
Mark's Pressie (Before)
Photo Album From Yvette the Love Goddess,Ah! Haha...Give me some motivation to take more photos in the future!
OMG! It is Bloody Beautiful...very elegant like cost a billion bucks!
