Thursday, April 30, 2009
Something Special
Ok, yesterday was the day my precious brother of mine turning 17 this year...haha...
Chill out with Yve and Lay Tin while they bought snacks and also met my mum at J8.
We had lunch at KFC and here it starts to have our own "amazing race" of finding pressie for my bro.
Bought with my mum his favourite treasure PC DVD Quantum of Solace Game Version and I chose Levi's black tee that my mum has been so called "persevered" to buy it specially for my brother.
School is too short nowadays...just a blink of the eye like 1 second is the end of the school day...So to me like I have a lot of time to spend going out...
" Haha, Poor U...I am glad you were beside me ...all for a while..."
Monday, April 27, 2009
Over And Out
Ever since, that I have now changed into a final happy,out of crazy box minded and keep smiling person; this part of this chapter of my life has given me an open door to the challenges and other after effects/impacts on me that make me what I really am.
Knowingly, some of the things that really wiped my inner smile away that I wanna cry cos i failed to keep it going especially a deed of helping other person.
But if this is what has gotten of me and the best cure of that situation...
I somehow feel sad,amissed and struggling to make it through and annoyed this feeling.
I wanna focus of what is important matters in front of me....just keep going straight....
I wanna clear everything and start over...But I may fear that I will repeat the mistakes again as I am more emotional than being practical.
How...
" It's cold when you are not here with me, it is colder when we look at each other with no words coming out of our mouths"
Saturday, April 25, 2009
I don't know you anymore...
I have to do my attachement presentation by the next two weeks...sigh...at least I have suffcient time to do. Just 10 slides in summarized form...yeah...
Not sure, which level or class I am going to present...anything will do...
Im free again...sadly..I wish that I shouldn't had that crush love feeling and be there as a friend...I guess my heart couldn't take it...
I lost it...all left is memories,the beginning and the ending...the money and 3 songs I requested from him...
It is better for me to get out of his picture that I may bring more chaotic unnecessary drama.
I am moving on with main motive in my mind: school with opportunities...keep on winning and don't look back...
My heart feel better now but..
Im sorry...
Argh...my lips is so dried including my face plus my irritating eczema (skin condition)...
School is killing me...with this 2 lessons to face it everyday..there's no drive...
Feeling the dejavu everytime...
So much left after school...eating oily food at Burger King At Yew Tee Point cos of the coupons haha...
"I like to flirt with those who teases and lighten up my life"
Friday, April 24, 2009
Boreds~
| Your Spicy Score: Mild |
 You don't feel like you need to spice things up. You're happy to play things cool.
You'll go along with fun, but you don't feel like you have to be the life of the party.
While people appreciate your cool vibe, as long as you're laid back and not uptight.
There's a chance you're taking yourself too seriously. Relax a little! |
| What Your Handbag Says About You |
 You are concerned with how you appear. Projecting your high status is important to you.
You tend to be relaxed throughout the day. You are naturally at peace.
You are a low maintenance person. You can adapt to a variety of situations.
You are a high maintenance person. You feel lost outside of your normal environment.
You are a very creative person. Your life tends to be a whirlwind, but you always seem to pull it together.
You are an outgoing and expressive person. You always speak your mind, and you're very approachable.
You are a very unique and special person. There's no one else who is anything like you. |
| Your Fashion Style is Girly |
 You dress to look beautiful and show off what you've got
Dresses, skirts, heels... whatever it takes to turn heads
You love feeling like a girl in any setting
Even your workout clothes are cute and feminine! |
| Your Gemstone Says You Love Yourself |
 You are simply joyful. You find it easy to have peace of mind.
You tend to think positive thoughts. It's easy to control where your mind goes.
You have great mental powers and self discipline.
You are able to dream big. You definitely aren't afraid of failure. |
| You Should Date An Australian! |
 You're a down to earth, outdoorsy kind of girl
And you need a guy who can keep up with your adventures
A rugged Australian guy is just your style
Better start learning how to surf! |
| You Are A Chocolate Ice Cream Girl |
 Dramatic. Powerful. Flirty. |
" My Annesia Of You "
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Pictures
Alot of pictures for you to see (Image Seminar February 2009) I know it's late haha!
Saturday, April 18, 2009
Just Words
Ok Im back...
School starts, everything is great.
Get Cool with my White Girls (Me,Laytin and Yve the Snow White haha)
The timetable is absolutely short of lessons of Design Application and Integrated Event Planning since my class is holding 2 subjects excluding LPD lesson which are meant for O level students.
It is because the rest of us had taken lesson like PIE..from nitec years..yeah.
Timetable again...short...too short that have a lot of time for a early knockoff to go outing with friends...
It is like short period to study and long time to play a fool haha.
Only except Monday which end at 5.
I was like what plans I am going to made after school since the rest of school week knock off early...if not ah, I will feel unsatisfied.
What had happened during the absense:
Last Monday, Yve,Laytin and I went to Plaza Singapura since we all suddenly been released once we gotten our transcript and timetable for just less than 5 mins?!~
WHAT THE SHIT!
But on the good part, I had fun with Yve and Ah Ting...walking a stroll thru the shopping mall and play a huge fool of ourselves especially at the Spotlight which was obviously have something good to joke about with the products as our prop and decorations,haha!
Umm...then last Thursday, we girls of Hobbicraft club had to setup our booth to recruit new members of the April Intake at the ITE Machpherson...
Personally, as there are us too many to handle a small booth. Most of the minutes, I,Laytin and Yve went around...talking to our friends,Rachel and Kelly including our classmates,Mas,Jac C and one of my runner,Randy Goh....go go go! haha..
It was bloody fun which was unexpected...yeah talking,having jokes and took pictures....
When I looked at my pictures of myself, I smiled more than I usually should which is a great thing to me...finally...
As I predicted Dianah was there with a chinese guy, as I first thought that she schooled there...I annoyed her but she found me in the end as obviously of my intention at that place...
She changed,yes...
She apologized...yeah I know it's over
She now schooled at ITE Tampines as she entered Higher Nitec for her studies...good for her ah...
So she came here to get her new CCA...ohh...oooh..oohh...ohh...(That's my reaction)
Actually, I had nothing much to say to her...I purposely asked her what she would be doing after that...She would go home...
I asked her to better go home without saying more words further...
Cos there is nothing much can be done to my gone case friendship with her...and want her to be independent in her life....
End it....
Great Im free to breathe and just gonna be alert for goodness sake...
Ok lah...end here..muaks bye bye...
"Sleep Well, My Little Romeo"
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Another Stage of Life
Let's you can say: Finally this girl is updating for quite long already.
Let me say: Yeah I am updating finally,Happy? >.<"
Ok,finally my almost 3 week attachement is hella over.
I personally not that proud to work there cos the workplace was tensely boring and very quiet.
It was so quiet that you can hear a drip of water splashing out...the people working there can be catergorized into 2 groups:
1.Boring and Tense
2.Likes to insult and critized
The worst experience that I ever met....
But at the same time, I learnt a handful experience which I gained mostly from making quotations,meeting people and promoting in sales event.
I never like to talk to people cos they are in their ages which I can be labelled as the outcast.
Nah, I can hate it very much but I at least learn and improve myself abit including having myself to expose to the tough reality,knowing the types of people in the hell I can meet.
Overall I can never be suprised this happens to me when I begin to work in that attachment...
I will move on and dare take more attachment to learn and grow...
Guys, just don't make me remember that attachment...please don't...
Important much of all, my holiday period is well used...Im happy for that...
I believe I can make a difference,somewhere......
I stop here...muaks and bye bye!
"I wanna burn their world!"
Saturday, April 4, 2009
A Sad Envy
I feel so useless sometimes when comes to defend myself and others with me. Whenever other people critises, I keep quiet to annoy and treat it like a useless fight from them. But soon when time passes, it will haunt me very emotionally.
And I can't take it and blame myself to be so timid and useless..hopeless.
I try so hard to be the stronger self but it will never last that long. I will tend to be weak in my heart like a wounded victim in the dark.
I am so scared to continue to face the world. Especially this time when I have to handle my fears alone..alone,Im so scared to ask for help from others that they may hurt me even further.
I have no one to trust and I don't understand this part of this modern life.
What I see people get hurt tends to have those who victimized them even further...amazingly treated like a joke or nothing...
Those who wants respect and being good tends to destroy everything even the people around them will backstab when good people are not up to their liking...
I don't understand...
I ask for help but everybody wants to mind their own business than mine...I DON'T UNDERSTAND!
WHAT'S WRONG WITH THIS WORLD!!!
I want to give up so badly and run away to the place where nobody knows me.
Why!?
Why is it so hard to have a nice starting and ending..?
I tried to be tough to save myself....
I don't understand....
DOES IT KILLS YOU TO SHOW ME RESPECT!
Sigh...
I wanna cry but I can't...
Cos I can't feel anything..it's scary right?
Seriously cannot feel anything....Im numb....
"I really envy those who can make it thru in this harsh world"
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