I feel so useless sometimes when comes to defend myself and others with me. Whenever other people critises, I keep quiet to annoy and treat it like a useless fight from them. But soon when time passes, it will haunt me very emotionally.

And I can't take it and blame myself to be so timid and useless..hopeless.

I try so hard to be the stronger self but it will never last that long. I will tend to be weak in my heart like a wounded victim in the dark.

I am so scared to continue to face the world. Especially this time when I have to handle my fears alone..alone,Im so scared to ask for help from others that they may hurt me even further.

I have no one to trust and I don't understand this part of this modern life.

What I see people get hurt tends to have those who victimized them even further...amazingly treated like a joke or nothing...

Those who wants respect and being good tends to destroy everything even the people around them will backstab when good people are not up to their liking...

I don't understand...

I ask for help but everybody wants to mind their own business than mine...I DON'T UNDERSTAND!

WHAT'S WRONG WITH THIS WORLD!!!

I want to give up so badly and run away to the place where nobody knows me.

Why!?

Why is it so hard to have a nice starting and ending..?

I tried to be tough to save myself....

I don't understand....

DOES IT KILLS YOU TO SHOW ME RESPECT!

Sigh...

I wanna cry but I can't...

Cos I can't feel anything..it's scary right?

Seriously cannot feel anything....Im numb....