Ever since, that I have now changed into a final happy,out of crazy box minded and keep smiling person; this part of this chapter of my life has given me an open door to the challenges and other after effects/impacts on me that make me what I really am.

Knowingly, some of the things that really wiped my inner smile away that I wanna cry cos i failed to keep it going especially a deed of helping other person.

But if this is what has gotten of me and the best cure of that situation...

I somehow feel sad,amissed and struggling to make it through and annoyed this feeling.

I wanna focus of what is important matters in front of me....just keep going straight....

I wanna clear everything and start over...But I may fear that I will repeat the mistakes again as I am more emotional than being practical.

How...