On my 20th birthday, I felt like myself being stuck and not moving at all...don't fell happy about it...turning really older...I just couldn't help it even though they told me to be fine with it.

They don't know how does it feel to be in a total sudden change just like that?

So I was all day being moody and sulking but thanks for the birthday wishes and pressies... especially my class sang a birthday song to me...feeling kinda awkward but wanna know my appreciation because they tried...

They asked me to say my speech...unexpected...I just said whatever came from my mind with my hand scratching my head...feeling stepped on...cold

I was there, feeling that my "time" was finally over...feeling "sick" and restless...don't know what to do but to just stand very emotional all the way for 2 days...

No mood to study but wanna to go out to feel better alone....

I cried at night, feeling frustrated because I am left hanging and holding on to nothing...

Some people I asked for suggestion or advice...that one gave me an answer which meaning to ending a life...I can say that person is the most idoitic person I ever met...

Why not I slap that person's face with a metalic bat..stupid...!

I was like"IDOIT! I AM IN A BAD EMOTIONAL STATE AND MY BIRTHDAY WAS YESTERDAY AND NOW U TELLING ME THIS....IDOIT...READ YOUR QURAN,WILL YOU!"

I don't care anymore...and don't even bother giving drama scenes anymore...I will just go straight,straight away...to get to the finish line...no matter what...even it hurts me...

I have been through all that way before..sigh

Not easy living a life, huh?

Anyway, I have passed my POM CA Exam which is 38/50 reaching my expected core of 40 but it is ok as I passed it, it is enough for me...

CLT! Champion seh...second is Ah Chiang,sio...hiya..feeling down *hides in the corner with black face*

Nevermind... :)

I will be loading some pics soon as I can grab time into my hands... XD!